Hi, I have been a practicing Muslim, up until a few weeks ago (although I am still maintaining my 'practicing muslim' image for security reasons). There's so many things I've been thinking about in Islam, and feel it's just not right. I don't know if I've left Islam or whether I'm still a Muslim, it's just too much emotional and mental torture. Been trying to justify teachings are ruling which are filled with hatred, misogyny and racism, but I have no answers. There are things which no longer apply in this age. When muslim clerics/or people with more knowledge are questioned, they say I have become murtid or someone who needs to do astaghfar and pray. I am in a very scary place and don't know. Perhaps came here for some guidance and non judgmental support.