Having doubts in islam, have got no one to talk to anymore about this. It is eating me up and need some help.
Here is how my life was/has been before i left for uni:
Wake up at 6.00
pray Quran till 8
school from 9-4
come home and pray quran from 4-5
mosque from 5-9
go home by bus ( 30 minutes journey)
get home
eat and then sleep
repeat
FYI i was forced to become a hafiz which i hated (my dad is one)
so i spent all of my childhood locked up inside constantly practicing the quran which led me to almost kill my self as i had no freedom and would also not get food if i didnt memorise enough and read it to my dad or my abusive mosque teacher.
After getting my year 12 grades i told my parents that if they sent me to mosque i would beat up my mosque teacher(bear in mind this guy abused me for year) in yr 12 i was about 6\'2\" and 190lbs so taking down my mosque teacher wouldnt of been a probelm. In fact i still want to break his arm for destroying my chuldhood
TL;DR:
Forced to be hafiz
abusive mosque teacher
threatened to beat up abusive mosque teacher.