I became an atheist for more than two years along with my beloved wife. But we never disclosed our beliefs or understanding as nowadays my country’s people are almost motivated as communal and extremist Muslims. They are dangerous for us who are progressive, open-minded thinkers, and non-believers or atheists. If I disclose my thoughts, I can be attacked by my community, friends, neighbors, colleagues, and even my siblings. No open discussion or opinion about the Muslim religion or progressiveness is accepted here. Physical abuse or being hit for murder is a very normal thing here. Not only that but my wife and only child can be attacked by extreme Muslim believers. Most importantly I must lose my job as my employer is an extremist Muslim and no one will provide me with a job at that age. In that case, it will be difficult for me to survive with my family as I don’t have enough savings or wealth. Because of the overall situation, I am acting regularly as a religious Muslim in my workplace. That is very painful for me. Sometimes I get extremely shocked and become very frustrated. Every moment I feel suffocated and can’t sleep well at night. I am hypocritical with my ideology every moment. It is making me a mental disorder I think. I need to come out of this situation, so I'm looking for friends and community to share my pains and getting suggestions, that why I am here.