I converted to Islam at the end of last year with the best of intentions. As a homosexual with serious mental health problems, I knew it would be a big struggle for me to become a Muslim, but was up for the challenge and positive about it. I renounced Islam a couple of days ago. The experience of trying to repress my sexual thoughts and identity left me with sex on the brain all the time, wet dreams, self-hatred and suicidal ideation. Doing my best to be a good Muslim meant totally rejecting the gay friend I was living with and moving nearer to a mosque. Yesterday I moved back in with him and have ceased all contact with local Muslims. I found the experience of doing my best to learn how to pray \"properly\" and everything that goes with it a thoroughly joyless and irrational one. My contact at the mosque was trying to take over every aspect of my life. I attended the five daily prayers there for several weeks, a weekly ijtima and many other events. My conclusion is that practising Muslims are seriously deluded if not thoroughly bonkers. The CEMB is essential to look out for the interests and concerns of ex-Muslims and oppose a nutty and authoritarian belief system. Thanks for being there and providing a forum for apostates.