Hello,
So throughout my teen years, I've been coming to terms with the fact that I don't believe in Allah or Islam. I've never really agreed with the use of the hijab and I'd say I'm quite lucky that mother was "respectful" of my decision not to wear one. I believe there are a lot of double standards between the genders. many of my older cousins are slowly being married off and the idea of an arranged marriage is becoming more and more real. I also realised recently how religious my family are. The only segregated weddings I've been to in the past 5 years have been my cousins.
I'm struggling with the fact that my mother is expecting me to move straight back in with the family when my degree is over, maybe she'll have a change of heart over the next three years but that idea is daunting. They also expect me home every weekend, which is getting exhausting.
I don't know if any of this made sense.