hello every one am so glad that i could find people who i can share and talk with , back here in jordan you cant just say what ever you want or what i not believe and what they believe , i cant make a full conversation with a friend because the religion hints are always their even if it was a small conversation they will say some thing about religion, some of people who i know noticed that am avoiding this kind of subjects and start to ask questions already and my only answer was i dont know , yet the hardest part is on the way ... am trying to stay positive much i could , but its hard thou since i burly have any friends who i can share or just be happy to talk with ,the feeling of being save and life are rare to feel ,,, in islamic if some one don\'t believe the muslims are allowed to cut his/her throat or to be shot , i had this threat before when i was in iraq on 2008 with the USA military as translator on my way back to jordan some people saw me and start to call me names as betrayer and other names and that some day they going to find me and give what i deserve like they said ,so far i keep it low and am avoiding almost every thing , the thing that am start to be tired of all what they saying and what they are doing for people , and to let bad things going middle east is a very hot area and i mean by that that jehadist and salafe Muslims are threatening jordan and any one can watch what they are saying to jordan and the threatening messages they send by different media sides , i know many of ex-muslims share the same feeling of fear in middle east , and we cant do anything about it too, which makes our life\'s more harder than ever , CEMB am very thankful i found this website to share what i want... even so there is a lot to say , but its good and gives a cozy feeling i hadn\'t felt long time ago.