As a student of science, I can\'t hold on to the dogmatic ideology I was brought up in. I\'m twenty six now, but I haven\'t been a Muslim for almost eight years. I am Canadian of Pakistani (Lahore) origin. My family is all Muslim and all of my childhood friends are Muslims. I obviously love and care for all of them, but I\'m so intellectually and emotionally alienated. I haven\'t told any family member about my views. I don\'t think that anyone will disown me if I come out, but I\'m certain that many people will be shattered and heartbroken. I feel very alone.