I am 54 yo and I was a muslim. I left islam when I was 15, but actually I was never a \"good\" muslim, I never prayed and I read the quran only when I was at school. Of course I never told anyone in Saudi Arabia because I was afraid. When we finaly left to Europe I felt much safer and I started to show a little more of my new religion. I became a christian (again not a good one) when I was 21 and I decided to tell my family as soo as I finished univercity and found a job. My parents were almost ok with it because they too were not religious. When I was a child I was told to hate non muslims especially the polytheists, atheists and jews. I could not understand why and once when I asked my teacher the reason sying that I did not agree, he slept me on the face and told me that I should not ask question about islam. I should only do what islam says. This same teacher and others used to force me into sex since the age of 7. I was never a very maculine boy and in fact today (and always) I am a gay. I was used so many times by my teachers, students and other men that for many times I did not want to go to school nor out in the streets. Now I don\'t hate islam, but I could never ever never go back to it. When I go to muslim coutries I must tell them that I am a muslim and I sometimes go pray with my friends, but I can\'t even remember how to do it well.