I converted to Islam 15 years ago. My family is Orthodox Christians and I was the only muslim in my family. They could never understand what came over me after learning about my conversion. I just wanted to try something new I guess. Since my conversion my entire life has turned upside down. I lost my identity and happiness. I have become a depressed person I could no longer recognise. throughout these 15 years I was having doubts about islam once in a while but I kept thinking it was the devil whispering into my ears. Now I am in the middle east living with my partner who is so called salafi muslim with extreme views. I have to hide the truth from him and can no longer pretend . I want to get out and go back to Europe. I hate being here. people out there who are in a similar situation please contact me