NameKAZI SIDDIQUE
Statement

Please include a statement as to why you want to join and the significance of the organisation for you. Any background information would be useful. HI, I am an ex-Muslim I was a religious person in my previous life. I used to go to the mosque and I did other religious activity on regular basis but one day suddenly it was about 8 months ago from today's date I realised that I don’t have any religious faith left in my heart because of so many questions and I didn't get any solution for that what I did in my past life I didn't get any benefited from it but also day by day my life getting miserable ! After that, I stopped doing all my religious activity my mind don't let me do that I don't know why and I didn’t feel any guilt or something close to it.

why don't I have any beliefs in my religion ?
All my life I prayed to god for anything or for everything I wanted to have but I remember not a single prayer was answered! Mostly every time I pray to god for entire humanity to bring the peace in this world but still I can see the situation getting worst day by day.

I lost my faith in God because I never have what I wanted but instead I understand one thing that if someone worked hard for what he looking for there is maximum possibility to get, it means if I work hard I will achieve my goal which is also mentioned in your religious book also mentioned other religious books. That means work hard to get the success. So why should I waste my time to pray ? but if someone doesn't work hard and pray to God all day in order to achieve his goal will not be successful.

I think belief in God is just an emotional anomaly which is used by people in order to achieve something maybe not easily possible or very hard to get in real life or which is out of their reach and they are not easily capable of achieving it by themselves so they turn to god and pray for that thing. Also, people show their feeling or expression of reverence and adoration to God and share very personal matter and get relaxed.

when I work hard for something I achieve it but when I pray to god to achieve that goal it never happens until I worked for that it means there is no existence of god in the world. Also, I have lot's of a question in my mind and after thinking those I realised there is no god in the world If there wouldn’t be evil things happening in the world. So many innocents peoples died every single day including children's. This world full of injustices and discriminations where is the God ? Who created the entire solar system, Millions of Galaxies and Billions and Billions of planets can't he control a small planet like our earth ? if the god truly exists there He could bring peace in this world and he wouldn't let this happen in people's life.

Now I believe religion doesn't mean doing the religious activity all the time it has become a part of the culture. I know so many Christian people who don't pray at all or didn't go to church for pray but they celebrate Christmas's in every year. Same as Muslim's many people don't perform Salah (praying 5 times a day) but 1 day in a year they celebrate Eid festival. Hindus are same also that's why I don't like to condemn against religion am I right ?

According to me "The people who become an Atheist or doesn't believe in god they are intelligent and extraordinary good human being they should explain other people by using scientific theory and be gentle.

Now I'm facing the problem my life going through the depression I can not disclose it to anyone that I become an atheist if someone knows about it my life will be in real danger especially for our Muslim community or I might have to separate from my family, Friends, Community ! But my family member is already suspecting me because of my appearance about Islam and I'm not doing any religious activity. But I have to explain them they are just wasting their important times by worshiping god and I will do this. Maybe one day my relative, or friends will become my serious enemies.

I want to join your organisation or can I ? Please suggest me and give me some advice about your organisation many thanks for reading.
Look forward to your quick reply.
KAZI