NameMaryam Hussein
Statement

So it all started when my bestfriend came out the closet (as an atheist) during Ramadan. Me still very religious was overwhelmed with all kinds of feelings. I thought that she was no longer my friend, however I was fine with it a few hours later. I strongly believe in classic liberalism, so she had all the freedom the chose what to believe. Later in the summervacation I started looking up atheist vs muslim videos and they were so interesting. I always had doubts/ questions, but the doubt was increasing because of the videos. I started talking with bff and she was really suprised and we were debating for hours. I came to realisation that I no longer am a muslim and it gave me a relieved feeling. 2 weeks later.. I told my mother and my siblings, my mom teared a little bit She was saying that I am confused, I don't know Islam,It's a phase etc. My brother was my second supporter and my little sister was just dissapointed. Then my dad came from Somalia and after a week I told him everything. He was quiet at first, but then said: You're my daughter I will always love you etc... And I was extremely happy, but then we made some promises which I now regret. I couldn't debate religion in the livingroom or with my siblings, I had to hide all of this, I couldn't go on other people their devices etc... And now in the present things are okay, but when school start I want to take off my hijab and that is a really big step. But idc I'm going to do it!