Hello,
I am Mona Luqman, from a young age I was an aspiring Apologetic, my future was clear and was based entirely on Allah. My story is neither exciting neither is it life changing however it was for me. At the small age of 16 I was studying for a religious exam which were my GCSE's. The exam required me to know quotes for Hinduism, Judaism, Christianity and Islam obviously. We covered homosexuality, women, abortion, medical ethics etc. So I was obliged to read the Quran (along with other scriptures however as a Muslim the reading the Quran was not only for study purposes but it was feeding my imaan), what I read not only shocked me but had left me in doubt. I read about the treatment of women and the violent punishments, slavery and brutality towards other religions. I was sucked into the internet vortex, I read and I read and I watched. My faith was not only damaged but so was my identity, without Islam I am no one (as I was taught to believe). I shoved it to the back of my mind and told myself I would validate all things considered wrong in Islam, I had to in order to restore my faith. A week later I had 7 pages of scientific errors in the Quran, I had not even reached Historical errors. I came up with a criteria that in order for any religion to be the word of God, it had to be scientifically correct, historically correct and morally correct. If at any point any of these foundations were contradicted I would leave Islam or the religion in question. I have composed 66 scientific errors in the Quran alone each with 1+ quotes to back it up, (if you want them I could email them to you) I had no choice but to leave Islam. I refused to follow a religion so blatantly incorrect and against basic scientific knowledge which as a 16 year old even I knew about. I followed the same criteria (scientific, historical and moral) for Christianity, the same results however I did not go into the same depth as what I found in the Bible such as slavery and genocide (again I could give you these verses) were enough for me to say no. I studied science and am now a proud yet secret atheist. I live my life as a Muslim who hates God and hates religion, it has no place in society today and God's planet is not perfect but flawed immensely by suffering to the innocent. I plan to come out Atheist on my 18th Birthday.
Again my story is neither exciting nor life changing but for me it changed the foundations of my purpose in life.
Thank you for reading
Mona Luqman